Not Sure Yet.
It all started in the garden.
“Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the Lord God had made. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?”
“Did God really say?”
This is where the doubt began—not just for Eve, but for generations of women after her. Our stories travel through our veins, and if we don’t familiarize ourselves with them, they can sneak up on us, poisoning us from the inside out.
Have you ever felt that same doubt?
"Did God really say?"
Satan, the Father of Lies, uses doubt like a highway—gaining access to our thoughts, twisting truth, and launching his attacks.
If you're familiar with the story in the Garden, you'll know that God didn’t forbid Adam and Eve from eating from any tree. He gave them one clear instruction: do not eat from one specific tree. Everything else was freely theirs.
But Satan's plan began with distortion.
“Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?”
That lie was subtle. The best lies always are—threaded with a hint of truth. The enemy didn't just deceive Eve; he caused her to doubt what she knew God had said.
And here comes Eve’s great mistake:
Upon hearing the lie, experiencing the doubt, and entertaining curiosity… she didn’t go back to God.
She didn’t say,
"Hey Dad, this guy just said something and I’m not sure—can we talk about it?"
She fell for it. Just like Alice down the rabbit hole.
And that fall was more than personal sin—it cracked the story of humanity. But this wasn’t just history; it was a pattern:
→ Clear Mission from God
→ Doubt
→ Sabotaging the Mission
→ Despair and Uncertainty
I’ve walked that path too…Still do. You probably have as well.
A fancy word—epigenetics—explains why this might feel hard-wired.
Epigenetics is the study of how behaviors and environments affect how genes are expressed. It teaches us that stories don’t just get passed down like bedtime tales—they travel biologically. Through cells. Through silence. Through stress. Through the way our DNA "remembers."
Here’s something wild:
A woman is born with all the eggs she will ever have. That means when your grandmother was pregnant with your mother, you were there too—already forming, already being influenced by her world.
So when Eve experienced the trauma of the Fall, she didn’t just affect herself—she affected all of us.
No, we didn’t inherit her memory. We inherited her pattern.
These patterns can become like cobwebs—subtle, sticky, hard to see. We don’t always realize what’s keeping us stuck. But once we do, we have a responsibility:
To untangle them.
To walk out of confusion and into clarity.
To set a new default for our DNA—one rooted in virtue, not in doubt.
So how do we begin?
Jesus paved the way with His sacrifice. But walking it out is our choice.
Step One: Acknowledge the pattern.
Where has doubt been sabotaging your mission?Step Two: Build a new habit.
When I feel doubt creeping in, instead of entertaining it, I will...→ Ask God what He thinks.
Maybe you’re thinking,
"Natalie, God doesn’t talk to me."
But the truth is, He speaks to all of us. We just aren’t listening. We are too entrenched in the cobweb to see our way out.
How do you distinguish God’s voice from all the noise?
You read the Word. It tunes your ear to His tone.
You listen for the whisper.
It’s kinder than what you’d say to yourself.
It’s an idea you might not come up with on your own.
It always points you back to virtue:
love, hope, faith, humility, patience, wisdom, charity, temperance.
Friend, you were not born to live in confusion.
You were born to break the pattern.
The enemy still whispers, “Did God really say?”
And we must respond with, “Yes, He did. And I believe Him.”
Love,
Natalie Nicole Li
